Portrait of A BOJO As A Young Man

I need to start thinking deeper thoughts. Jazz is great, and King's English is paying the bills, and getting me laid by five different chicas every night. I like the free dope and the free fame, but still, 60 k a year is not the same as 70 k, which was my goal by age 30. I mean, where are my priorities? Maybe instead of all this jazz crap, I should be the administrator of a group home run by a drunken, reclusive, ego driven maniac. I mean...yeah. That could be really positive. Hey, "positive": that is just a great, great word to describe so many things. I think...yeah, I think I'll stick with that. Okay, great! That is really great. You know, I think if I sell my soul now to a group home, it will be worth more than if I sell it for rock n' roll. Hey...that was an incredibly bright thing to think. See, there's the "process" and then there's a "goal." The main thing to remember, is how to differentiate process from goals, and then...yeah. Wow. I mean, it REALLY is ALL GOOD. Hey Me, I wonder if I smoke too much dope. And what is that? "Smoking too much dope?" Well...I guess one way of looking at that question is by asking another question. And well, what is that other question? Well, for example I could say, "hey BOJO, do you--I mean I--smoke too much dope?" and depending on the answer, I could say, "well, how do we quantify too much dope? And how is that dope smoked? And why?" I mean, there might be several factors going on here, time, stress and the method of dope ingestion all influence how we can view one angle of the question. Uh, wait a second. What am I saying? Who am I talking to? These are other totally valid questions, and I respect that fact that they were asked, and I really respect myself for even having the courage to ask them to myself. It REALLY is all good.

Yeah, I think I really need to learn to let go of jazz. I have cash to think about. And what can I do with cash? Well, I can buy more dope, and I can smoke it in my Lincoln Navigator. Bjut wait a minute, I get dope for FREE, so why would I want to buy it? Well, there's several ways of looking at it, and each of those ways have several sub-categories of ways that are related to the main question...of numbers of ways. Well, lets see. Lets look at this. Dope. Its good. Really good. And buying dope when I could get it for free makes me look good. It makes me take more responsibility, and taking responsibility is always a positive thing. How can it not be?

Yeah, its funny the way that Steve guy keeps following me around and offering me hand jobs if I'll just come work for him at his company. Its weird but...maybe the offers of free hand jobs are really a way of expressing a desire to express himself in clearer and more socially appropriate ways, and how can that struggle NOT be a good thing? And how can it not be a good thing to share in someone else's journey to find self expression? It really not can not be a good thing? It HAS to be good, because really everything IS good. It always is. I'm proud of me, for my ability to respect myself and others.

Wow, I've haven't ingested any dope in five minutes. That could or couldn't be a good thing, but it really doesn't matter all that much.

Gosh, and that group home company sounds like a very...uh...pimp friendly atmosphere, and it shares the journyes of these wonderful, great, money making retarded people. But I feel the need to clarify: not like the band "Journey." Journey was a great band. "You take it on the road bay-bay. Nowhere to go now ba-bay." Who can ever forget words like that? Or was that Oreo Speedwagon? I'm just...not...sure. I'm glad that I was able to establish the importance of defining our terms.